Friday, August 26, 2005

Baaaad Poncho/Insanity

It was with great pride that I posted the picture of my first lace work. I have since realized I was doing it all wrong. See the original work next to correct work:
Notice how the one on the left looks like a big old mess and the one on the right actually looks like a pattern. Ahhh, see what understanding a yarn over does for a gal? Unfortunately, on the far left side of the correct pattern (you can barely see it on the photo), there was an error, so I have to start the poncho yet again tonight. However, these setbacks have made me more determined than ever to get this poncho made, dammit.

Dear Reader, I would like to warn you, we are now entering the mental illness portion of this post.

LORNA'S LACES LION & LAMB IS MY NEW LUVA.

We were all sooo excited when the box arrived.

The suspense mounted as the box was opened.... Almost there.


Revealing my luva!!!

The kitties loved the luvas.

Then the Luvas were wound into balls. Here's one.

I never told myself I would not become a knitter who posts a photo diary of opening a box of yarn, but I never thought it would get that far.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

The Knitter

To become a knitter, I had to tell myself the following:

  1. I will not have more than one project on the needles at once.
  2. I will not buy yarn for projects I can not start immediately.
  3. I will not spend more than 8 cents per yard on yarn ($16 for 200 yards)
  4. I will not buy every sized needle that was ever invented.
  5. I will not buy a winder. Even if I buy a winder, I won’t buy a swift.
  6. I will not devote large amounts of space to storing knitting paraphernalia.
  7. I will not bore my co-workers, friends, parents and random strangers talking about knittting incessantly.
  8. I will not give up other enjoyable activities for knitting.
  9. I will not allow myself to feel overwhelmed because there are so many beautiful projects to do and is so, so little time.
  10. I will allow myself to enjoy my new hobby without letting it take over my life since I strive for balance in all facets of my life.

For me to consider myself a “real” knitter, I had to do the following:

  1. Have four projects on needles, at least one of which I have no intention of ever finishing.
  2. Buy all beautiful yarn on sight. There’s no point letting someone else buy MY beautiful yarn that I discovered.
  3. Spend a ridiculous amount of money on yarn for a scarf (while living in Houston where you never, ever ever need scarves)… 15 cents per yard
  4. Keep buying needles without any sense of whether or not I already owned them, forcing me to create an excel spreadsheet to keep track of which sizes I have and don’t have (realizing I have 4 sets of US9 straight needles).
  5. Buy a winder. Realize a winder without a swift is like a knitting needle without yarn and forcing me to go out and immediately purchase a swift. Then, take pictures of the pair.
  6. Buy a table. Buy a set of drawers. Buy a container for works in progress.
  7. Talk to everyone about knitting. So that when people introduce me to others, they immediately indicate that I am “the knitter.” I even bring new, really impressive yarn purchases to work and make all my male coworkers feel it.
  8. Spend time seriously considering whether or not to rent a foreign film because reading subtitles while knitting is quite difficult.
  9. Create a spreadsheet and ranking system (which had to be altered several times) in order to determine the best order in which to work after almost suffering a nervous breakdown given the large number of projects I wish to complete (and then, of course, completely ignoring said very logical and sensible spreadsheet and ranking system).
  10. Spend time at work doing the following: looking for yarn, re-sizing patterns, reading instructions on blocking, checking out knitting blogs, wishing there was a way for me to knit and type. Spend all time at home: with knitting needles, knitting books or yarn in my hands. Spend time out: wishing I could be at home with knitting needles, knitting books or yarn in my hands.

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

"Craft Center"

This weekend, I purchased a table and drawers from Ikea. The table and drawers have now become my "craft center." I put the words "craft center" in quotes because I refuse to actually call my new table and drawers a "craft center"; however, I can't think of a better name. Here's a photo of my new, fabulous place of crafting.


I have a place for my swift, ball winder, current projects (in the bag and silver thing), magazines (visible in bac, right corner on top of drawer unit), Vouge Knitting book (on top of desk) and binder full of patterns from knitty.com and other various sources.

Here's what I'm working on:

This pattern is the Kitchen Sink from knitty.com. This is the bottom. I'm using the yarn called for in the pattern: Bernat Handicrafter Cotton in Country Sage. This pattern required me to pick up stitches for the first time, which really caused a headache. But, as you can see, I've picked them all up in this photo and am making progress up to the top of the bag.

On the right here is my poncho. This is the Star Rib Mesh poncho from Interweave knits. There's a big old error about 1/3 a way up the photo where I miscounted and did the row totally wrong. I'm hoping to be able to fudge most of the error with blocking.

Still waiting on my darling dear from Yarn Market. Tomorrow is supposed to be the day, so we shall see.

Monday, August 22, 2005

Cingular made me cry twice

I’ve not had a relationship like this since my freshman year of college. I’ve been in this relationship less than a month, and it’s already made me cry twice. It just hasn’t lived up to its promise. The phone isn’t really there for me when I need it. Not only is it not there, it just drops me when I need it most. Its interest in me fluctuates; sometimes I get a five bar interest, sometimes one bar. Then there’s the phone’s support network, which is really quite weak. This is the second time I’ve tried to penetrate its vast web of indifference with little success. However, at least it’s consistent: I had to talk to four people the first time; I’m getting ready to be connected to the fourth right now. Well, really the fifth, but the two bozos at the store really only count as one person. I’ve tried to reason with it. I’ve tried abusing it. The problem is that I just can’t get rid of it no matter how hard I try. Something about a box. That I threw away. And is now ruining my life.

(for the remainder of this post, italics indicate comments from Cingular wireless employees)

Do you want a new phone? No.

Do you want us to see if we can fix your phone? No.

It looks like your reception should be good. It’s not.

Please don’t raise your voice at me. Don’t raise your voice at me.

Well, if you get a new phone, we can see if it’s your phone or not. Or, you can take it to the store and have them replace your SIM card. Do you know what a SIM card is? No. It’s a card in your phone. (That’s called SIM? Really? Thanks asshole).

Me to idiot Cingular assface number 4: I want to cancel my service. The problem is I threw away the box, and no one will take the phone back. So, what do I do? “You threw away the box?” Yes “Oh” So, how can I return my phone. “Ummm.” (I take the lead) The people at the store said that I can return the phone without the box as long as I had a receipt. I have the welcome packet. Is that a receipt? “Ummmm.” (make it stop… this is really how it went. No comedic exaggeration or nothin'). I need you to tell me what they mean by a receipt. “Is it in the box?” I don’t know. I don’t have the box. “Oh.” (pause) “Ummm… I can fax or mail you a receipt.” Ok. I’d like you to fax it to me. “Huh.” I’d like you to fax it. “Oh. Ok.” Can I give you my fax number? “Uhhh Ok.” My fax number is 2-8-1 “3-8-1” No, two. Like 1, 2. “Huh?” (pause) “Can we just start over.” (Oh. My. God.)

“So you want me to fax you a copy of the receipt?” Yes, I’d like you to fax me the receipt. But in case they don’t take it back at the store with the receipt like they said they would, I would like you to give me the address I can send it to so that I can mail it instead. “You want the address?” Yes. “Ok, the name is: Cingular Wireless Return Center. 866-245-5539.” Uggg, I have to talk to more people? “Oh. I gave you the phone number.” Yeah, are you new? “No. No, not at all." Ummm, Ok. “See, the phone number is just right below the name.” Ahhh. “The address is..." Got it. "So you want me to fax you the receipt?” (he keeps asking me this; he probably can’t use the fax machine). Yes see, I’d like to go to the store to return it rather than mail it because going to the post office is almost as bad as talking to Cingular people. (2 points Homiquest!!! I really said that).

I’ve been on the phone an hour. But it’s done. We are separated. Nevermore.

Friday, August 19, 2005

Service Please

My Starbucks lady was in a bad mood this morning. She was clomping around the espresso bar, sighing and stealing furtive glances at all the customers to see if we would notice her bad mood. No one said anything. We hadn’t had our coffee yet, so understandably, we were not very emotionally available for her. Plus, she’s my freakin’ Starbucks lady, and I don’t really give a shit about her mood. Smile, make me my over-priced coffee and let’s get on with it, shall we? I got a bagel for lunch the other day and the man at the cash register was talking on his cell phone the whole time he rung me up. I expressed my dissatisfaction by throwing the receipt on the counter while shooting death rays at him. He didn’t notice; he kept on, “Yeah… well… I would never do that to you… shut up… no, I wouldn’t.” He is why I hate cell phones. The Cingular guy who sent me into the death spiral of cell phone angst two weeks ago was an 18 year-old punk slouching over the counter, lecturing me on purchasing an LG phone and throwing away the box. He made me scream. Seriously, after I left the shop, I let out this muffled, in-throat scream. My waitress at lunch two weekends ago threw my food at my table dismissively as if I, a person eating alone and drinking Shirley temples, was the bane of her existence. I heard her complaining about a $4 tip left on a $60 bill by some other customers, so I understood why she was upset, but I still didn’t care. I tipped $2 on a $9.50 bill; I am not one of them. Hand me my food nicely.

Look, I don’t want my customer service people overly cheerful; I just want them to leave me out of their drama. I don’t care if you’ve had a bad day; I don’t care if you are suffering through a very traumatic, on-going personal crisis. Give me good service and leave me out of it. It’s like my parents. I have enough insanity going on in my little head; I don’t need you adding to it. I’m not insensitive to your plight; I just expected you to internalize it like all healthy, well adjusted people do.

On the other hand, the other day in Barnes and Noble I asked the guy if they had any Primus, and he lit up. “Man, we should.” Man was said in that chummy, you get it type of way. After days spent looking for Lindsay Lohan, Hillary Duff and Backstreet Boy albums for pre-teens who can’t stop complaining about their lot in life (having to go back to school, Billy trying to feel me up, and my parents who refuse to purchase the cool, new trendy item I must have or my life will end), my decent taste in music was a breath of fresh air. “We only have Sailing the Sees of Cheese.” Oh. I already have that and want Pork Soda. “Sorry, but I can order it for you.” Thanks. Bliss.

More Bliss:



In case you can't see. That's three skeins Lorna's Laces Lion and Lamb Yarn in Tuscanny. AND a Denise Interchangeable Needles Kit (a thank you to Becky who helped me sort out my feelings on the color).

This yarn is being sent by regular old UPS. Not 3 day select or anything like that. You know what that means? The yarn goes more places. That’s right. Normally, packages sent to me via UPS 3 day select stop at three places. Like: Indianapolis, Oklahoma City, Stafford, Me. This package is getting a free tour of the Midwest. Ohio, Indianapolis, IL and still going. It hasn’t even traveled south yet. So my question is: why does it cost less for more people to handle my package?

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Funny or what?

I've always wanted to be deep. In the movie Happy Accidents, a couple breaks up because they both think the other isn't deep enough. I've always wanted to be one of those people that reads philosophy and has opinions about it ("...well, Hume's analysis of miracles really doesn't explain blah blah..."). However, I'm starting to realize as I get older that people who are "deep" are just boring or depressed. Now, I think I'd rather be funny. You can fake deep; you can't fake funny.

One of my good friends in college tried to fake funny. She told these jokes that were just so dumb. All the guys laughed at her because she was beautiful. The girls made fun of her behind her back. My friend Liz and I had a good bit we did to make fun of her. Liz would say something stupid (like, "then we walked home and had dinner"), and we both would laugh obnoxiously loud. Then I would say something stupid, and we'd laugh some more. We'd normally do this until Amy (our other roommate) told us to shut up. I loved Liz. We had so much fun. I loved Amy, too. Amy was the kind of person that everyone wanted to be around. She just made everything fun; she was loud, hilarious and full of life and energy. Amy and I had a big falling out and haven't spoken since college. I've lost touch with lots of people through the years, but Liz and Amy are two people I wish I still knew.

Virginia Tech makes you take all these out of major classes in order to produce the semblance of more rounded students. As an engineer, my major priority in college was not philosophy. I got a C in my first philosophy class. I had a crush on my professor in my second. He was really a bad teacher now that I think about it. He taught Descartes by pointing out how dumb most of his theories were. He taught Hume by pointing out how insightful all his theories were. Then he would talk about how the Offspring sucked and that they really weren't punk. I'm sure that my life would be much more fullfilling had I not been forced to soak up his theories on these theories and was allowed to formulate my own instead. I'd be a much better person if I hadn't stared at his ass all semester.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Tuesday stuff

I'm afriad I might be losing my mind... Of course, my mind is quite easy to lose right now because I stayed up until 2:30 this morning reading Harry Potter. I woke up in quite a daze this morning; I only got out of bed because the cats wouldn’t leave me alone. Liam is on a diet. Well, I’ve not been calling it a diet in an attempt to save his self esteem (though I routinely laugh at him because he can’t clean his back due to volume increases). Instead I say that I’ve just stopped over-feeding him (which is true), but to him, I’m the evil non-giver of food who needs to be woken between 5:30 and 6:30 every morning.

I was supposed to wear a suit today, but I didn’t. I keep using the excuse that my suits don’t fit me; however, that’s been true for a couple of months, so I know that on days when I need to wear a suit, I’m not going to have one that fits until I go buy one. My pants that go with my jacket are two sizes too big. My jacket was too small, but probably fits now. I have some other pants that match the jacket, and I think that they fit, but I know they are tighter than I’d like. I spend most of my days lounging around my office in pants that are a size too big. My shirt today is too big as well. I need to suck it up and buy some clothes that fit properly. I look silly in all these too big clothes. But the opportunity cost of fitting clothes is gobs of beautiful yarn.

I’ve always loved wearing clothes that were too big. My mom always lectured me when I was in high school and college about my unattractive, too-big clothes. When I started getting fat, I stopped wearing too-big clothes but only because my too-big clothes became too-small clothes quite quickly.

“Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.” That’s supposed to help people lose weight. It doesn’t help me. I think it is a completely false statement. I’m almost certain that a box of Godiva Truffles tastes almost as good as thin feels. I bet a ganache covered chocolate mousse cake with loads of crème anglaise tastes even better than thin feels. Those two silly comments, however, have highlighted the flaw in the slogan. I’m sure that being thin feels great, but it’s not an even trade off. It’s not as if a wizard is sitting in front of me with a box of Godiva in one hand and thin in the other and saying, “Pick.” If I only had to turn down one box of Godiva for thin, I could totally handle it. But it just doesn’t work that way.

Uggg. I just had three distressing calls. Call1: Car repairs totaling $788 before tax. $853 after tax. Of course, I’m convinced I’m getting ripped off, but whatever. What’s done is done. Call 2: Me to mom. Actually trying to call my dad, but mom is in bad mood. What’s wrong? Dad being an asshole. Whatever. Call 3: Dad to me. Your mom shouldn’t tell you I’m being an asshole. She did all these things and that’s not right, blah blah. I don’t care, don’t bother me with this stuff. I love you, I love her, leave me out of it.

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Debt

I have been in debt since I was 18. My first year in college, I experimented with living beyond my means. I liked it. In my mind, the credit was free money. No consequences. You carry $700 in credit card debt, and your minimum payment is $14. When I was 19 and 20, I took two semesters off to work (in a co-op program). I made great money and was extended more credit. More free money. When I was 22, I went to London for a summer. I maxed out my free money. Daddy helped me unmax it after several paniced calls home. Then I maxed it again. After college, I got a couple of cards in the name of consolidating and managing my debt. Of course, that didn't happen. I just used the free money to buy shit like a standing mixer and crappy QVC paintings (Yes, I went through a QVC phase. What, I was depressed!!).

I had no idea how to manage my money until about 6 months ago. Six months ago, and I'm 27. I understood the reasoning behind managing money. I understood the planning that needed to go into managing my money; however, I didn't understand the discipline it took to live on my budget.

And as an egnineer, I was making good money out of college. It's not like I was struggling along as a teacher in a large metropolis. I was a chemical engineer working for a large company in a really small town with a really low cost of living. At that point, I was paying back my Dad for the loans and paying back Visa (soon I was paying back Visa, Mastercard and Discover). And this debt has been following me around for 9 years. It's been really oppressive for about 5 years.

So, yesterday, I get this letter from my mastercard bank, and it tells me that they have extended my credit line. These people are assholes. What, I finally get my balance below its max and am making more than the minimum payment each month and don't have a debt to income ratio that is obscene and oppressive, and you want to extend my credit line and make it worse? Assholes.

I've thought of fifty things I could buy with this extra credit, but I'm not going to. I'm done with it.

Friday, August 12, 2005

Playball

I went to a baseball game last night with three people from work. I don't love baseball. Actually, I don't really like it. It's boring. It falls in the category of "things that are fun but only if you drink a lot of beer," and given my tendency to turn into a raving lunatic bitch when I drink a lot of beer, I try to avoid those types of activities (my mom is much more polite and just says that being drunk makes me "combative" but really: raving. lunatic. bitch.). Anyway, I went because I liked the people that were going, the tickets were free, and I knew I'd score a free meal out of the event. I had fun. It was an I-love-my-job-and-never-want-to-leave-these-people night.

This morning was an I-love-my-job-and-never-want-to-leave-these-people-unless-the-hot-man-sitting-across-the-table-(who-just-happens-to-own-a-large-manufacturing-company)-asks-me-to-work-for-him,-to-live-with-him,-or-to-be-his-female-slave kind of morning. So, we are in this meeting talking to clients, and this hot, hot man is sitting across from me. I think he's maybe a trader from New York, a new employee learning the ropes of the business or something like that. I'm thinking he's maybe a couple years older than me. Then, during a short break, I run to my office and go get some of my business cards from my desk (this is something I have yet to figure out: bring the cards TO the meeting, dork). I hand the beautiful man one of my cards while trying desperatly to convey my availabilty as a female slave. He takes it, and says, "You never got one of mine, did you?" I shake my head. He grabs one and hands it to me. "Thanks." I look at it. His title: "President" I start looking for the name of the fraternity he's president of, but no, he's the president of the manufacturing company. I think of my title: "Technical Research Associate," which just sounds like code for "data bitch" to me. I try not to stare at him for the rest of the meeting though I am desperatly trying to guess the man's age. Toward the end of the meeting, while someone is making a point about the short-term market, I take a risk (I normally just soak information up in these meetings and keep nice and quiet) and make a counter-point about long-term markets. Everyone nods in agreement at my point, including Hotty McPresident Man. I am making progress. Oh yeah, I am data bitch. HEAR ME MAKE SIGNIFICANT POINTS ABOUT LONG-TERM PETROCHEMICAL MARKETS, sucka. Nothing, and I mean nothing, turns a young, rich, hot man on like significant points about long-term petrochemical markets. You remember that boys and girls.

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Compliments

When I was in 7th grade, my math teacher didn’t recommend me for Algebra. Back then, no one took algebra in the 7th grade, so taking in 8th grade made me part of the smart group. Of course, part of her reasoning probably included her concerns about the fact that I had cheated on my units test (you know, how many pints in a quart, etc). I cheated and got caught. I got caught because I had written the conversions on my hands in big, black magic marker (in fact, I had written it so many times that I actually remembered it come test time). My friend Jocelyn also cheated, but she didn’t get caught. I forged my mother’s signature on the test and the accompanying note of admonishment, so my parents didn’t know I had cheated until a few years ago. At the time, my mother was incensed that I had not been put in Algebra by this teacher (my mother being a math teacher herself) and put me in there anyway. I didn’t feel smart enough to be in the class, but I did it anyway.

When I was in 10th grade, my Chemistry teacher didn’t recommend me for AP Chemistry. Mr. Fisher was the teacher’s name. I really liked chemistry and decided to take it anyway. We had summer assignments for AP chemistry; I felt like a hack. In the class, I felt like a hack. I sat behind David Brooks (not of the NY Times fame) who always joked Sonic Youth calling them a ‘chick’ band because Kim Gordon (who was and still is my hero) is in it. That didn’t make me feel like a hack; it just annoyed me. I never liked him for that. Anyway, I just never felt smart enough for that class.

Then I took the AP Chemistry test and got a 5 (out of 5). And I realized that I wasn’t a hack. Only a few people in my class got 5s, and I was one of them. It hit me: I was smart.

However, it wasn’t until a few years ago that I didn’t roll my eyes and mumble some lame joke when people told me I was smart. I just couldn’t handle it when someone told me I was smart.

I wasn’t that way just about intelligence compliments. I routinely rolled my eyes and mumbled lame jokes when people told me that I was nice or that I looked nice or that I did a good job at something.

One day, I realized that I had to allow myself to take a compliment. It’s a hard thing to do, but I believe it's a sign of grace (like being classy type grace, not religious type grace). Especially when someone gives me a compliment about something I perceive is false. Like, wow, that’s impressive that you’ve lost 30 pounds this year. Or, we think you are going a wonderful job here [at your new job]. Now, I try to look the person in the eye and say thank you. Grace.

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

I forgot..

I forgot to put deoderant on this morning. I feel gross. I feel like a freak. Who forgets that? Does everyone? I had a good day. My performance review went well; turns out all my previous anxiety was for not. I made funny jokes. Bantered with the bosses. And I didn't have deoderant on. It just makes me feel like a phony. Like my good day and my raise and my requests for more responsibility were made by this woman who is a complete fake. It's caused me to crash.

I always fear that if I took a look at myself at certain moments in my life that I wouldn't like what I see. That, if I were looking at someone else, I would shake my head and wonder what was wrong with that person. I take a snapshot as I laugh at my joke. I take a snapshot as I fashion a poncho out of a large poster formerly on my wall. I take a snapshot as I blog.

I wonder what the hell is wrong with me. Am I depressed again? I'm taking medication. Should I take more? Will it work? What if it never works? Is this me? Will I always be a happy, funny, smart, motivated woman whose day can be completly destroyed by lack of deoderant? God, did I smell?

I'm terrified of getting to close to people because then they could tell me that these things I hate about myself are real. There, that's my bared soul. That's my fear. That's why I gained 100 pounds and why I don't have a boyfriend and why I take long to make friends. That's terror. Self-imposed, completely avoidable terror.

I've lost 30 pounds in the year I've lived here. Yesterday, someone told me how great that was. I don't believe them. No one can tell. Except my mom, but she's so supportive that she would tell me she'd noticed if I told her I'd lost 1/8 a pound. But I can tell. I can't tell myself how great that is because all I can see it what's ahead. Work.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Traffic makes me Holla

Moment of Zen...



Bag from Last Minute Knitted Gifts in Classic Elite Yarns Miracle. For Dora. For taking care of the kitties and scooping their litter.

Now, several not-so-zen moments. Per an old tradition with my friend, Axinar, I make bulleted lists:

  • Traffic makes me Holla: We all know the strong aversion I have to the song "Holla Back Girl" Well, yesterday, my yarn obsession brought me to Hobby Lobby, in search of yarn for one of my new projects. Having converted from a one-project-at-a-time girl to a several-projects-on-needles girl, I am starting to become anxious since I have, at this time, only three projects needles. One of which I am likely not to finish. Ever. (Reggia sock: bad idea, bad colors, itchy yarn, no need for wool socks in Houston... unless made from oh so soft merino yarn). Anyway, on my way back from the Lobby, I ran into traffic. Traffic, like summer heat, is part of the fabric of Houston. It used to make me a homicidal maniac (why I live so close to the office) but doesn't get to me as much anymore. Though I wasn't feeling it on my lunch break (traffic at noon still makes me a little mad as does traffic on the weekends). However, I am coping when what comes on the radio? Holla Back Girl. And I can't change the channel. It's like a traffic accident: I can't turn away. First, I start laughing at the song and then I start shaking my head in dismay. It ends. I move about 30 feet in the traffic. Change the station. The damn song comes on AGAIN! Exponentially more dismay.
  • Performance Reviews: I have mine tomorrow. This is creating a general unease in my life. I am convinced that I am either going to be 1) fired or 2) demoted. This is, of course, causing me to lose sleep (not making me happy), lose my appetite (not a bad thing) and generally question my reality. I have, of course, constructed numerous alternate life paths involving moving (to New York), traveling around the world (with one or more hot men) or generally becoming fabulous beyond my petrochemical industry roots.
  • Cell Phone:

Photo one: My new phone. Me cupping it lovingly in my hand.

The forces of darkness had successfully conspired and convinced me to purchase this evil device. It immediately lived up to the two main reasons I had for not purchasing a cell phone in the first place. 1) That I would feel bad about myself because no one would call me on it. 2) That it wouldn't work and would annoy the crap out of me, causing me never to bring it with my anywhere and hence negating the fact that I own a cell phone at all. The not working part is where the fun starts. The only thing my new phone does consistently is drop calls. Not that I get many, but my social calendar isn't exactly helped by the fact that I hang up on those few who call me. Lots of drama ensues. I talk to four (yes four, one in the store and three on the phone) Cingular people. After sorting through various layers of idiocy on the part of Cingular employees, I decide to give it a week ("Ma'am the tower closest to your house is down for repairs... Well, there are hundreds of towers with problems in the Houston area, so we aren't sure when it will be fixed." Hundreds). Despite the calming effect the final Cingular employee had on me, I still had a bone to pick with the cell phone. Luckily, my gang of yarn took care of it for me:

The double pointed needles started the carnage. Lorna's Laces finished it off.

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Quicky

That's this update. I have no time. Work is insane, but I just had to acknowledge cute little Francie and her Umbilical Cord hat made by moi. It is currently too big, but I have been assured by the baby's owner that the baby will grow into it.




Tuesday, August 02, 2005

You are following a outdoor texas woman

That's the bumper sticker I drove home behind. And it was in caps, too: "You Are Following A Outdoor Texas Woman" I shook my head.

Soon after that I saw someone trying to kill himself. He was biking in rush hour in Houston. Houston, at least the part I'm in, is the least bike friendly place I've been. It's like hey buddy, get out of the way, I'm trying to drive here. I have an SUV. I need my road. (btw, i'm not picking on SUV's cause I have one. That was me jabbing myself, sucka).

Houstonians are excellent at complaining about the weather. The summers are miserable. I mean awful. I left work at 5:30 and it was 98 degrees outside. Probably 90 percent humidity. The whining is accompanied by a hopeless look because we know it's just not going to get better for a long time. When I was in Chicago, it was sooo hot. The Chicago residents, however, didn't have that look. Because they knew, they knew that in about 2 days, it was going to cool down. They get that look in winter. But you know, I've been through a northern winter, and my attitude about a Houston summer is very different.

It's thunderstorming now. I love it.

Really Pretentious

I interviewed a woman at work this afternoon. I feel like a hack. I took this HR course at ND in which we discussed a lot about interviewing, but I never really got a firm idea of what you should ask people. Anyway, my suggestion was that I throw pieces of paper at her and see if she is quick enough to duck them (quick reflexes are important at any job). My boss vetoed that idea. Something about law suits.

Anyway, last summer, I was going through the same thing. That's how I landed here, in Houston. It was an awful experience. Starting with the cold calling. Luckily, most of the firms I contacted were consulting firms and the people were traveling so I could just leave messages. But the interviews...

In one interview, they asked me how I would determine an airline's liability (on their balance sheet) for frequent flier miles. As an engineer, this seemed to be a very obvious problem: look up the number of frequent flier miles outstanding and multiply it by the average cost per mile. But no, as a consultant, you have to go through hell, back to heaven, and thru purgatory and back to hell to get the answer. The guy says to me, "Ok, but how else could you do it?" I give him a blank look (thinking, my way is pretty damn good, I can't imagine there is a better one). And he, still leading, says, "Well, how many seats are there on an airplane? And what percent do you think are occupied by frequent flier passengers?" I look at the window, hoping to throw myself out of it (understanding immediately why they don't open up on the third floor). By the end, I'm multiplying 5*10^6 by 10^3 in my head trying to figure out the average distance the average business traveler flies in a year times all the business travelers in the world. I'm getting all the numbers wrong by factors of 10 (so, the answer is 10 billion. no, 100 million). We were both happy once it was over. It was a nice-to-meet-you-but-i-never-hope-to-see-you-again shake. I mean, from his end, I obviously sucked, but from my end, why would I want to go work for a company that would calculate frequent flier miles like that?

Then there's the interview where I'm asked how I would decide whether or not to open a gas station on a given corner. I go through all of it: the marketing, the management, decisions on location, competition, all of it. Then she says what about financials? Luckily, this is a phone interview because my first reaction is to make the mock puke face. She says, "Would you do a cash flow analysis?" I say, "Oh, of course I would." In the that's a very obvious, though important suggestion tone. She says, "Well, how would you do it?" I immediately, become glad that I live on the first floor (so there's no tossing of self out windows) and enter complete bs mode. She bought the bs and asked me to come in for a second interview. I bombed that one.

Then, came my interviews at my current company. By the end of the day, I had no idea what I was telling people. I just sorta coasted from person to person in a daze babbling about myself. It was July in Houston, and I was in a winter South Bend suit. I was hot. And the suit was too small due to then recent growth in the stomach area (which has been reversed), so taking off jacket was not advisable. I was ready to go.